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Zeus Ralo

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Well, Its hard to say this to the people that view this, i don't know if this is the right place for it, i don't want to be the center of attention of anything, I just saying what is on my mind. I have a lot out of history of my self feeling so depressing of the artists artworks and sometime friends people have. To tell you the truth, I have been a jealous guy when I lay eyes on peoples master peaces they make. Some people you might know and see have the greats works and they make a name for them self as good , great, fantastic, or more. I get so jealous so easily on the artist I look up to, and it sad I keep feel so depressed of it because I'm not up there, I lack the skill, detailed work, and action poses and etc. My body just tremble when I lay eyes on the artist's artworks, I look over there works and feel less of an artist time after time and after time again. I can't help my self being so down all the time because I can't keep up what I want to achieve my goal to be a better artist. Its mostly the same thing goes with working out or weight lifting. I can't achieve anything. I look at every one else how they progress so greatly and yet I'm still trailing behind like a turtle. I want to get better in art plus working out, I know I whine a lot, depress around people, I do want to stop this.

Its bad that I'm doing this depressing around people and I know its not right to do that. I end up making other people upset plus the people around me and sometimes friends and plus people I talk to on IM. No one wants to deal with this, I know, I don't want to walk on there door step and crying like a storm with no end. I don't know what to do, I still trying to find a path, a style, skill, the heart of toughness to get through this but yet I'm still falling. Its easy to say I want to get better and get great at what I want to achieve but its hard to do it then saying it. I'm jealous on the artist and weight lifters here but I try to to ask so much question how you do this or how you do that. I don't want to be a nail that sticks out than get hammered for the things I say and making people uncomfortable.

Right now I'm just trying to find my way back, try not to feel so jealous of other people having more than what I have in artworks they show that are fantastic works and friends they have more of and etc. I just need to go a long just being me my self and say what ever seems right to people I talk to and not something that will put me in the chopping block and getting my head cut off for the things I say wrong. There are a lot of thing I wish I could turn back and start over. I had things hard and I guess I deserved it.. or maybe I do or maybe not but I was really a depressed guy for few years.

I'm put this out to tell my true self, I don't want to be in the center of attention. I don't know if this will bring me down on people that talk to me but I sure thing it have with a lot of people.

This is what is on my mind how things been for the passed year but I have yet told the hole story of my self..

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Try not to let it get you too down and try and cheer up abit. Everyone sometimes feels that way when they see another's artwork or something. I know i do at times. There've been many times i've felt like my skill's kinda just plateau'ed, sometimes surprised by how far i've actually gotten considering no art classes, and just stumbling through photoshop, all you can do is keep trying and keep going in your own way. Besides personally think your a pretty good artist in your own right, even if your not seeing it that way atm. ^^;

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Try not to let it get you too down and try and cheer up abit. Everyone sometimes feels that way when they see another's artwork or something. I know i do at times. There've been many times i've felt like my skill's kinda just plateau'ed, sometimes surprised by how far i've actually gotten considering no art classes, and just stumbling through photoshop, all you can do is keep trying and keep going in your own way. Besides personally think your a pretty good artist in your own right, even if your not seeing it that way atm. ^^;

Yea, I try not to think on anyone's art but its hard to keep an eye off them and look at your own to see what I can do to make it better instead looking other ways around. I had so much hard times trying to get through all this, I don't know what to do in keeping my self in the right path with out running off the road I try to keep on with. I have been looking over 50 artist during the time I felt like my art and my self was pieces of shit or crap of in skill and keep my mind in the game to make things look right for my self, but I tend to get all depressed all the F-ing time I try to get my self back......

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Don't surrender, never¡ If you stay doing your dreams as hard as ya can, you will go out from that depression¡

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